I need Christmas! BUT it's Advent!!!
I am an impatient person! If you did not know this about me then you might just not know me so well or have not been in too many "waiting" situations with me! I am also an extreme woman of worry which is sick and makes me sick most of the time. I am on my practicum which I might add is not fun nor easy. I am doing fine but have discovered or maybe have been reaffirmed that this is not really the career I should have been looking into. All seems fine and dandy but with 22 days left or some would say 4.5 weeks to go I shouldn't throw in the towel! However, I really really want too. It is hard to spend 8 hours a day in agony when you just want to maybe be at home with ma and pa and not doing anything. I know, sounds pretty selfish and well truth is it is pretty selfish.
I do these sort of things: Over analyze, freak out, have breakdowns on Sunday afternoons over the phone to my parents while they are in the middle of moving our house, cry a lot and then puke. Okay, life isn't all so bad because I guess(I know!) God is showing me something.
I have to WAIT! I don't want to but I must. I have 3 more days this week, then 5 more then Christmas all I can do is wait. Even if I wanted to pack up and leave tomorrow the lousy 40 dollars in my bank account will get me virtually nowhere! So once again I wait. I wait for a miracle, a slap in the face, a relief, peace but mostly I wait for Christmas..I wait for Christ to come!
All I ask is pray, and Lord I ask that you humble me to pray I feel pretty dumb.
Posted by Walshy