12/9/08

I need Christmas! BUT it's Advent!!!



I am an impatient person! If you did not know this about me then you might just not know me so well or have not been in too many "waiting" situations with me! I am also an extreme woman of worry which is sick and makes me sick most of the time. I am on my practicum which I might add is not fun nor easy. I am doing fine but have discovered or maybe have been reaffirmed that this is not really the career I should have been looking into. All seems fine and dandy but with 22 days left or some would say 4.5 weeks to go I shouldn't throw in the towel! However, I really really want too. It is hard to spend 8 hours a day in agony when you just want to maybe be at home with ma and pa and not doing anything. I know, sounds pretty selfish and well truth is it is pretty selfish.

I do these sort of things: Over analyze, freak out, have breakdowns on Sunday afternoons over the phone to my parents while they are in the middle of moving our house, cry a lot and then puke. Okay, life isn't all so bad because I guess(I know!) God is showing me something.

I have to WAIT! I don't want to but I must. I have 3 more days this week, then 5 more then Christmas all I can do is wait. Even if I wanted to pack up and leave tomorrow the lousy 40 dollars in my bank account will get me virtually nowhere! So once again I wait. I wait for a miracle, a slap in the face, a relief, peace but mostly I wait for Christmas..I wait for Christ to come!

All I ask is pray, and Lord I ask that you humble me to pray I feel pretty dumb.

5 comments:

Natashia said...

Oh Sarah! I wish I could give you a big hug right now ... thanks for your honesty. I think patience and waiting comes hard to many of us. Please know that you are in my prayers and I pray that this next week and a half will just fly by for you and that you will also experience good surprises of God's love and faithfulness for you ...I miss you and love you xxx

Breezy said...

Sarah! I miss you! You are almost done this!!! You will make it through...God will bring you through. I will be praying for you! luv you!

Anonymous said...

sarah,
Patience is a virtue that I don't have either. Stand strong, I will be praying for you. God will work in your life, Trust that he will show you what He wants you to learn through this. I wish I could give you a hug right now and give you comforting words, I am there in spirit.
marian

momma bear said...

so c-o-m-p-l-i-c-a-t-e-d....
waiting...
waiting...
waiting...

Wait 9 days and I will hug you

Neil K said...

Sarah, you are stronger than you give yourself credit for. I just went home for a funeral and am back here in saskatoon for another week, finishing up finals... but I also just want to be home right now! As you wait for Christ to come... just don't forget that he's already here! Be strong in Him and he'll guide you through these times of panic and homesickness... as he has been for me. you're in my prayers, God bless, and I'm sure you do a fine job out in windy Lethbridge!