Not sure who is left out there...

I am not sure who, if anyone still reads this page. I have been neglecting my blogging life something fierce for over a year really and it's time I feel to stop and reflect again.


I have had a lot of up's and down's in both my relationships, work life, money issues, home purchasing and in the areas of my faith. In the end Christ always remains my center and I am thankful that despite my blatant rebellion He is still whispering "I love you Sarah" in my ear.


Praise God.


As I enter a Saturday of winter blues, I am trying despite my anger filled texts to a boyfriend who I know loves me, keep my focus on God. He is not going anywhere in my life. I have been in an odd spot of transition littered with stress which is doing numbers on my physical body. With purchasing a new home, thinking of renovations, trying to learn how to fuse my life to another's(enter the boyfriend), find joy in my job, in my church and in my spiritual life I have been,


well,
struggling.


One thing remains the same; "I am pretty hungry for Heaven" and I am very tired.


satan has actually been winning sometimes even in my mind, I try when I can with Gods' help to kick him out but he is pretty persistent. Through moments with Pastors, friends and family we are praying him out of my life and putting him back in his place. *under my feet!


Sin is running rampant, and sometimes..I don't want to admit this I don't even feel sorry, I feel annoyed that I have to live differently then others. This is that whole satan playing in my mind thing. I am blessed to have a Father who is constantly pulling me back in, brushing me off and saying "I forgive you, let's keep walking" - sometimes I feel like I am limping, like I need more water, like I will just rest here for awhile and catch up later but Jesus isn't leaving me or letting me stop. He is a pretty persistent comforter.


It's winter today on the prairies, white snow covers all the "garbage" at the landfill literally as I look out my scale window.. I am remembering that nothing but the blood of Jesus can save me; not my own strength, my boyfriends love, my families support, my paycheck, my security, my selfishness, my pride, my beauty or my dreams.


Nothing.But.The.Blood!


-Help me to remember this dear Jesus.

So...I quit

I did, after four years I am saying good-bye to my job at the church.

I am most definitely NOT saying good-bye to:

• the church
• my youth
• my God
• Grande Prairie

It's been a long time coming of me praying & wrestling in which now I finally have peace, such peace. I feel the calming reassurance that "You can still do Gods's work without receiving a paycheck from the church"

With this decision has come many attacks in many forms:

• on my faith
• my heart
• through an ex-boyfriend
• through lies
• through gossip

Satan is having a field day and I am thankful for all of my praying friends who are always there with me to fight off the darkness. As I transition I would love if you could keep me in your prayers, ask God;

• to remind me I am His
• nothing can snatch me away
• being a christian has nothing to do with where you work
• He is faithful

All my love blogging peeps, God is good :)

I love Him.

Brothers, they're a hard thing from time to time but also so gentle, very gentle.

My younger brother adores me and by adores me I literally mean he cares a GREAT deal about me. He worries when a new "boy" comes calling, he warns me to be on my guard, he shakes his head and he says straight up "guys are jerks, I am a jerk and I don't like guys talking to you." His heart is so huge. Some people say "Ben is so protective of you, so over the top, he needs to settle down, give you space." The thing that bothers me so much about these statements is that none of these people truly know Ben, know his motives; he loves. He has said broken with tears in his eyes "I want you to be married soo bad, to meet the great guy but I am so fearful that you'll be hurt" -

He would hate for me to say this but Ben reminds me of my Jesus sometimes (a lot of the times- He would HATE being compared this way but I know none of you will tell him and he doesn't read my blog! haha) My Jesus knows I have to walk, that I will make choices, some that are wise others that will require bandaids but He gives me wisdom, discernment and walks with me through it all.

Ben is a lover, and he loves me and I am so thankful for him everyday. We may be different, may be a lot closer than other siblings but I think our relationship is simply a gift from God; a blessing and I will not tell people "ah I am lucky." I am not I have been blessed by my Saviour with a brother and friend who surpasses all my expectations of him (and I am a pretty demanding gal!!!)

Once in conversation with a friend I was mad that Ben hadn't shoveled the driveway yet (his job) and I said "I should just shovel my side of the driveway and put all my snow on his side as a punishment." My girlfriend said "that would be a dumb move because he will just shovel it all back to your side." But you know what? I sat there stunned because my Benny Boo Boo Benny would NEVER EVER shovel the snow back, he wouldn't, just never would. Ben is a giver, a lover and a friend with no hidden motives.

My Jesus is all these things and MORE!

How blessed indeed!

Trust

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

                               Oceans- Hillsong

It is time to blog, it's been too long I need to be more on top of this but time goes at a really fast speed it feels like. In the words of my Estonian roommate Chris though "Everyone just thinks they're busy, there is always time" - As she boards a flight tonight back to Europe to attend her mothers funeral I think yes, there really is always time. What am I spending my time in or on though?

Usually nothing or pinterest rarely do I find myself nestled in a good book, on my knees in prayer, singing praises or reading the word. Don't get me wrong, I do these things but they're not on the priority list in my life most times (dishes, laundry, pinterest, a movie, gardening) all of these other "important" things end up taking over my life. As I sat up late with Chris last night talking through the confusion it dawned on me that there is so much in this life we cannot control, that's ok too. She said to me "I can't control what is happening here, I just cannot let it control me" - Did I mention how I am certain Chris was sent here to speak to my heart?!?!

We cannot control life. I cannot control if someone will break my heart, if my car wont shift into gear (a fun time this morning with a trip to the dealership, which resulted in a missed workout, no breakfast and finding out my warranty is out haha), I cannot control it. I can however control my response to the arguments, the frustrations, the trials. Will I respond in love, joy, peace? Will I take a breath and really say "Lord, this really isn't the end of the world, help me out here" - I and I think we all need to pause, find the time to focus on what's actually important.

As I showered this morning uttering prayers for Chris, for my car, for a friends bills to be met, for my relationships I realized this is relationship with my Maker. Being able to actually talk to the Creator and knowing that He hears me and He cares about what I am saying (even if He chuckles from time to time).

Get in the presence of our Savior, that's how I feel as I play "Oceans by Hillsong" on repeat this morning. Resting in God's embrace is where I remember I am His and He is mine and that is where I can let all the worry go.

Life has been fast-paced, it has been fun, it has been hard, I have cried crocodile tears and smiled giant amounts of joy. - God is faithful. 

Challenging myself to get on my knees daily, reading His love story to me and all of you and knowing I am the tax collector from Luke 18:13 I will seek His face for all I need.

"But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, 'God, have mercy on me, a sinner.'"

Oh Lord, Have mercy on me.

Farther Along- Josh Garrels

Farther along we'll know all about it

Farther along we'll understand why

So, cheer up my brothers, live in the sunshine

We'll understand this, all by and by

Tempted and tried, I wondered why

The good man died, the bad man thrives

And Jesus cries because he loves 'em both

We're all cast-aways in need of rope

Hangin' on by the last threads of our hope

In a house of mirrors full of smoke

Confusing illusions I've seen

Where did I go wrong, I sang along

To every chorus of the song

That the devil wrote like a piper at the gates

Leading mice and men down to their fates

But some will courageously escape

The seductive voice with a heart of faith

While walkin' that line back home

So much more to life than we've been told

It's full of beauty that will unfold

And shine like you struck gold my wayward son

That deadweight burden weighs a ton

Go down into the river and let it run

Wash away all the things you've done

Forgiveness alright

Farther along we'll know all about it

Farther along we'll understand why

So, cheer up my brothers, live in the sunshine

We'll understand this, all by and by

Still I get hard pressed on every side

Between the rock and a compromise

Like the truth and pack of lies fightin' for my soul

And I've got no place left go

'Cause I got changed by what I've been shown

More glory than the world has known

Keeps me ramblin' on

Skipping like a calf loosed from its stall

I'm free to love once and for all

And even when I fall I'll get back up

For the joy that overflows my cup

Heaven filled me with more than enough

Broke down my levees and my bluffs

Let the flood wash me

And one day when the sky rolls back on us

Some rejoice and the others fuss

'Cause every knee must bow and tongue confess

That the Son of God is forever blessed

His is the kingdom, we're the guests

So put your voice up to the test

Sing Lord, come soon 

Farther along we'll know all about it

Farther along we'll understand why

So, cheer up my brothers, live in the sunshine

We'll understand this, all by and by

When God speaks..

Sometimes, correction most times I have to stop and remember that I serve a HUGE God that is capable of far more than I give Him credit for.

I worry.

I fret.

I get frustrated.

I cry.

Throughout the day though I am reminded of His love, His gentleness and His faithfulness. "Your love, Lord, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies.Your righteousness is like the highest mountains, your justice like the great deep." Psalm 36:5&6 - It's in passages like these ones that I have to be still and listen because I know the Lord is trying to reach me with a word from Him. I sit pondering His scripture and realize that He is crazy about me, crazy about you. I rest there in the thought that this God, this all loving God cares and is crazy about His daughter; me. 

That's humbling to say the least. I'm pretty crazy about Him too and I am also crazy about this woman, Nanny Walsh who is here visiting from Newfoundland, oh the blessings in abundance that are flowing from heaven!

So, I "had" a boyfriend

I don't even want to post this, mostly because it saddens me.

It also make me angry.

It also means it is what I say it is "had" past tense, finished.

There was this guy, this man really, with a beautiful soul, a huge heart and he made me filled to the brim with so much. I felt things I never knew I could, I heard things I never thought a man would whisper and I put my faith in the way he cared for me. I laughed so much. He was such a goof, he'd giggle, he'd roar in laughter and I would exclaim "I'm gonna pee" then we would laugh harder, together, always together. He would be deep, he would stop and grab my face and speak right into my heart, thoughtfully and with purpose. He knew God, he knows God. We shared this with hands connected and hearts bowed before our Father, we prayed, he would fast, he was serious, is serious. He taught me, I am not sure if he is even aware of this but he did. He taught me to not judge, he taught me there is more to a person than meets the eye. He didn't shave his beard, he loved comics and I who once thought "lame" enjoyed this about him, enjoyed his authenticity, enjoyed his determination. We talked about forever, we laughed about forever, we dreamed about forever, smiled about it and sighed with great exhales of anticipation for forever. I said to him "You're my first boyfriend, I hope you'll be my last"- he hoped for that too. He respected me. He honored me. He wouldn't cross lines and to make sure of this he initiated conversations about boundaries and protecting ourselves. He is a beautiful soul, a thoughtful soul, one I miss more each day, one I wish I could run back to and shake until his eyes became clear again but he is a "had" and that means done. With every end comes a new beginning, I have heard that one and it make me crazy inside. I thought he was my new beginning, I thought when I stood on my porch and he grabbed my face, stared into my eyes and said "I'm not going to kiss you, until you're ready, I'll wait for you" that a future together was being created. A picture was being painted. I remember the words, remember the joys and I also remember the struggles. He was deeply passionate and not afraid to show it. I also, am passionate, I labelled myself a psycho, he said that was not a label he would ever place on me. He said "If it matters to you, I'll respect it, it'll matter to me" - those words never hold true and they rarely are followed through on. He did however care for me, and I do feel like what he said he meant but somewhere we lost it. Somewhere in the midst of it all, in the midst of the excitement, he wanted out. Hard conversations were on our horizon and instead of us being adults, taking our time and digging into them with scripture at hand, we, he ended it. I say he because I didn't want any part of it, I didn't agree with it. The moment the words came "we'll do amazing things, just not together" I could have puked! I told him I might, he looked panicked. The tears came slowly down my cheek, God held me, He cradled me in His arms and protected me in the grief. I sat there limp as he tried to make sense of his words he had heard from God, I also tried to make sense of it. One argument turned into the end, an argument we never came to any solid conclusion from, an argument that I whole heartily believed would have had much more discussion is what shot our relationship down. An argument that we both vowed to never have without God in it, without the word open, two things drastically missing from that evening. I still feel like puking, every night since that one I feel like puking, I cry, I scream and I pray. This heart of mine is praying. Clarity would be nice, revelation also, maybe a swift kick to the head? I am praying, haven't stopped. The man who I "had" dated is a child of God, he is a man of faith, he is solid, bible-believing and I know that what satan had so much fun with that night God can work out. I don't know what this will ever look like, I am pretty convinced he will remain a "had" in my life but I am thankful for my time with him. I grieve the loss, I am furious at the lack of communication and I am sad, so so so sad that something so dear to my heart was taken. I am so sad how we can go from "I am going to sleep with you someday, not in a sexual way but beside you, us together" to him becoming a "had" in my life. If I could sit with him one more time, if I could connect to his heart again, if he would give me 5 minutes of his time I would say this;

Beloved, thank-you for everything you gave me. Live your life for God, do not follow men's teachings, think for yourself guided by the word and know I miss you terribly, I never wanted this and I wish this was a "hello" not a "goodbye." Be on guard. Always on guard dear one.

So, I "had" a boyfriend and now I have an "ex" boyfriend, there is indeed usually a first for everything.

Make you feel my love

When the rain

Is blowing in your face

And the whole world

Is on your case

I could offer you

A warm embrace

To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows

And the stars appear

And there is no - one there

To dry your tears

I could hold you

For a million years

To make you feel my love

I know you

Haven't made

Your mind up yet

But I would never

Do you wrong

I've known it

From the moment

That we met

No doubt in my mind

Where you belong

I'd go hungry

I'd go black and blue and

I'd go crawling

Down the avenue

You Know there's nothing

That I wouldn't do

To make you feel my love

The storms are raging

On the rolling sea

And on the highway of regret

The winds of change

Are blowing wild and free

You ain't seen nothing

Like me yet

I could make you happy

Make your dreams come true

Nothing that I wouldn't do

Go to the ends

Of the Earth for you

To make you feel my love, To make you feel my love

I heard this song this weekend at Breakforth, Brian Doerksen sang it. I have heard this song many many times before but this weekend I saw the beauty in it; I saw my Jesus in it. 

I have been ringing in the New Year with many new blessings that I know are straight from God; He is so gracious. Soon we welcome another little Walsh into our clan which will be an amazing blessing, I am excited to touch this babies skin, to whisper in their ears and tell them of Jesus' love for their being. I will soon watch an amazing friend of mine walk down the aisle and marry her best friend a dream of hers that's about to come true. I watch and wait and pray as I look into my future knowing that only God is the one who can and will provide for me. I thank Him. Thank Him for friends, for music, for food, for love, for a sense of belonging and that no matter what I do or have done I cannot escape His love for me. 

Just as the song says "Go to the ends of the Earth for you to 

make you feel my love" and that my Jesus sure did!

Bless you!

Fell into Fall and Wondering about Winter

It's coming, we had one day of it and it barely lasted. Yup, Winter! The first snow storm of the year and I managed to hit ice and then a curb. Lovely! ha ha  All was good I was not hurt and no one was involved except that poor old curb.

As I babysit my parents dog these last few day I have enjoyed the warm fireplace inside as I study the book of Ruth and ponder at how she was like AMAZING! Oh if only God would grow in me her work ethic, her wisdom, her dedication and her bravery, such a brave soul. I enjoy looking up from the pages of my bible at the flames burning, it reminds me that winter is coming. Soon it will be here..what will it be like?

Cold. I am sure it will be cold but more than just temperatures what is God going to do with me next, what wild road will He send me on. Will I be walking saddened with a relative to a foreign land? Will I find myself in a beautiful field under the watchful eye of a man of standing? Either way I know who my guide will be and will buckle up those winter boots and trek along.

It's been busy up here in the northern country. Things are in full swing I fell into Fall with a bang and a boom and am now stuck at my desk pondering winter..

What does God have up His sleeve this year?

I am so full of wonder as I anticipate.

Serving

Serving. I googled it because that is the best I could come up with this afternoon. Expecting to see pictures of waitresses and the such I was surprised that the second picture in my search was this; serving. I love it! The imagery, the meaning and the way I needed God to use it to speak to my heart.

I just took a course on leadership and the biggest lesson I learned was this quote I am summing it up of course but it went something like this; "I am not a person who does kind things, I am kind! I am not someone who does serving things, I am a servant." To become a servant like my Jesus is usually the goal hear on earth but I think I have spent useless time on kind & serving things without actually becoming a kind servant. Humbling for me I tell you!

We've been helping out a difficult lady lately and I have been wondering "How can you be so ungrateful? You are so hard to serve" it is in moments like these that I am reminded that it has nothing to do with me or how the other person behaves but that I am a servant and I shall do what is required of me; to serve. To serve all; the nice, the humble, the bitter, the injured, the old, the young, the mentally challenged, the well, the orphan, the ungrateful, the repentant, the unrepentant, ALL.

Let that soak in, it's doing a number on me. I don't get to choose who I will serve it has already been chosen for me through the sacrifice of my Saviour "For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life."

I have been blessed and will be blessed to serve all/everyone Christ died for, to die to myself daily and become the kind servant I was meant to be not this "person who does kind & serving things from time to time"

Bless you.

Stress Relief

My mind is boggled, literally boggled!

When I was young and stressed I would go for a walk, a hot bath or cry with my mommy. Sometimes I would run into my dads arms and snuggle or lock myself in my room with my cat.

Now a days my teenagers (I have 20 of them) smoke weed, cut themselves, take up smoking or drink to deal with "stress"

I'm going crazy!

I mean yes, I did the smoking & drinking thing but it wasn't because I was stressed it was because I was young and stupid.

I am boggled.

Praying God can un-boggle me and teach me how to deal with these youth, how to talk to them and how to show them positive outlets to deal with their stress. I am going to a seminar tonight on "Helping teenagers deal with stress" and hoping to gain some insight then take it home and make it biblical. God is sure challenging me but walking right with me.

Suicide is rampant right now, honestly going out of control in my northern corner and I am sick of it! Everytime I check a message it's another mom with a messed up kid, another friend with a broken marriage, or another report of a preventable death.

But I will choose Jesus, I will choose Joy and I will choose Victory! The Victory won for me and everyone on the cross. I choose life, life with God following Him and seeking Him for all my needs!

If you think of Grande Prairie please send up a prayer like this

"Hey satan, MOVE BACK off of these teenagers, MOVE BACK off these marriages, MOVE BACK off these suicides and MOVE BACK off of our callings, GET LOST! IN JESUS NAME BE GONE! MOVE BACK! Jesus, ENTER IN to these teenagers, ENTER IN to these marriages, ENTER IN to these boggled minds, ENTER IN to our callings and GUIDE us, PROTECT us and REMIND us of Your LOVE for US! AMEN!

-Thanks.

Water Aerobics & Sex Songs.

I go to water aerobics, everyday pretty much and the above picture is an accurate depiction of the type of ladies who are in my class. I love it, it's a fun way to work out, be active and not look like you're dying of dehydration. I've been attending for a year now and since our old pool closed and we moved into the new one we have been without any tunes for some time. Recently they have purchased this new music machine that usually busts out the beats of Abba or some Celine to a pumped up jam. I enjoy it!

A few weeks ago they introduced a new cd and I have dubbed it the "sex songs" disc. Unforunately because I went to public school and rode the school bus I know every word to these awful songs and I find myself singing along loudly. The other day when I caught myself singing "It's getting hot in here, so take off all your clothes" I stopped myself, dunked myself in the water and went woooow! I couldn't believe that the staffing thought this was the best CD for us to be working out to. I started wondering if I was the only one who felt a wee bit awkward or if I was just overreacting because I'm so innocent <-- lol not likely!!

When I turned to see an old grandma singing along to "Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me" I thought maybe I am old school. Maybe I need to be a bit more with it, or hip or whatever they call it! Then I thought about it again and decided Nope I don't have to be. Music is lame. I don't like how it gets into your brain and doesn't escape. I do not own any of the CD's with the songs I sing along to in the pool but they're there in my head catalouged away. Weird.

I guess I don't know where this is going except if you think water aerobics is just for a bunch of sissy old ladies who are singing the beats of Abba then don't let them fool you. They're young hipsters who are singing "Sexy Back" and burning the calories!

I do hate the CD and I'm planning to say something next week so I don't have to be singing all those nasty lyrics but I have also been praying for God to imbed His word in my heart so I can be singing that instead.

And it is so odd to hear a 60 year old belt out "shake your body like a belly dancer" just saying!

Bless you all!

psalm 34:18

There has been a lot going on this week. On Tuesday night we had a 15 year old girl take her life. The sorrow in my heart is nearly unbearable but not only my heart but my youths hearts. I had a busy day of emergecy counselling and being there no matter what these kids needed.

Please pray.

* For comfort for the family grieving (mom, dad, sister and brother left behind)
* My youth group who lost a friend.
* For the blood of Jesus to be claimed over these young kids lives and that satan would have no power here in the sadness and grief.

Thank-you.

On another note.

Dad arrived Thursday early morning and is now here to stay, mom will come back at the end of June. The parents are back in GP yet again but this time they bought a house, so I'm thinking it's pretty official.

Courage- thanks Kvemsy errr Gilly lol :)

So I'm back.

Been gone from this blogging world for awhile but really feeling the pull to share the joys/struggles of my existence with my beautiful blogging/praying friends!

Life's hard.

Work... harder.

God is on the move, there is a lot going on but I am really starting to feel the stresses and tension of satan and his little lame guys who like to get right into a good thing and mess around. This good thing is the church and I cry a lot. Pray for guidance, pride to fall and COURAGE. I know God is working, and that He is sovereign but boy do things ever get messy & complicated in this life I live.

I am getting tired.

Not tired of God, oh definitely not! But tired of sadness of pain and of despair. That despair that drives you to hug a newly married woman whose husband doesn't desire to live anymore. The despair of men working for the Lord who no longer think the scripture is the "only" source. The despair of PRIDE killing any good thing in this world with the idea that "I am #1" Despair..dang despair.

But then...JOY.

It comes. Joy of answered prayers, walls breaking down and repentance being sought after. The joy of Gods' faithfulness and that He not only says it in His word but He does what He says <-- at least there is one great God-guy left out there whose bold enough to deal with the mess. Praise You God. The joy of parents moving back, bills being met, food being consume and Goddaughters resting in the Word of my Jesus.

Stopped at Elli's blog listened to a song by Cathy AJ Hardy. Then clicked another "Courage for today" and boy thank you Jesus for good solid Bible believing, sin repenting friends who seek after You and die daily to this ugly & messy thing called earth. Who refuse to live in the flesh but seek to love what You love. Praise YOU again!!!

Lift it all up in prayer my friends. It's been rocky. It's been exciting. Mostly it's been a lot of clinging to the Father for everything, oh how I love His warmth.

Oooops.

Maybe if I post a picture you'll all forgive me, if anyone reads this anymore anyways :)

It's almost Christmas, I am up to my ears in "churchy" things getting ready for this season of love. I can hardly wait to be home with ma and pa and charlie and mike and alex and HAILEY!Only a few more snoozes and I'll be there, who's counting lol.

It has been busy up here in the North not too much to report to be honest.

I'm working lots as a full time Youth Worker up here and loving every second of it. They are finally after 3 years building me an office, it's gonna be pretty spectacular I must say, pretty pumped! I live up here with Benny Boo we're just trucking through the trenches of ministry and clinging to our Jesus with all our might. God has been pretty good to us which is to be expected that's kind of how He rolls but most of YOU know that from your own stories :) I am so thankful to God for that!!!!

My year has basically consisted of church, the pool, counting calories, cutting hair, dropping dress sizes, a few dates, and really just new and exciting experiences that I have never had before. Still single, still loving it, still serving the Lord and still praying for each of you!

Blessings!

It's been way too long!

I'm sorry :( It has been way too long and I really don't have too many excuses but I will try to muster up a few !

#1) my computer sucks! (but I do know there is one at work and one in the basement so not really a valid excuse)

#2) I've been busy. (while this is true it is not completely truthful because I have been able to knit 3 scarves, 2 toques and read a few books during my "busy" season)

#3) my life isn't that exciting. (which is true but not accurate lot's has been happening.)

Well I am still up in Grande Prairie on almost year 3!!! crazy! and at our last church meeting it sounds like they may actually be building me an office, how cool is that! No more fake walls that people cannot lean on :) They have changed my job up here from "Parish Support Worker(whatever that really was lol)" to "youth worker" so that is an exciting change and a greater responsibility for myself!

I went home this summer and visited my new niece, so cute I'm pretty much in love I'd say. I have realized I enjoy spoiling her and while it is wonderful for said Hailey it is not so wonderful on aunties bank :( but seriously who cares! lol.

I went salmon fishing with dad and ben this summer in northern BC and once again like always I caught the most, no surprises there. At one point in the trip my dad made a comment "I should have left you behind" and I just looked at him, smiled and said "minus 12" that was the number of fish I caught. He got the point quite quickly! We have lots of salmon so if you find yourself in the neighbourhood let me know and I'll cedar plank some for you and maybe this time I won't even light the bbq on fire. Imagine!

This summer has been full and fall is proving the same from auctions to fishing, from weddings to hospital rooms, from laughter to sorrow, from grammas to nanny's, and from pale to burnt skin God is moulding me and teaching me how to wait with a Godly patience. I am praying that through this season in my life where I can almost taste the future that I will let go and fully live in the present and praise Him here.

God bless you all. I hope to be around a bit more :)

Windy windy windy!

It's MAY!!! Woweee!

It has been quite a few busy weeks/months and I just feel crazy most of the time. We are starting to see the finish line for many programs at the church but needing to get revved up for summer events on the way ! It is super crazy around here.

The sun is so beautiful up here in the Peace Country, it is finally summerish out. For the long weekend Ben and I are hoping to put up our swing in the backyard, we( as in me ) might go pick up some bedding plants and get the garden on the go, maybe mow the lawn and get it all "summery!" There is so much to get done and it seems not enough hours in a day to accomplish it all.

I got to meet my niece (previous post). She is so cute, and I am still in awe of her I love getting pictures of her and I have a framed one of her "frowny face" in the kitchen it makes me smile soooo big!!

This is a very random post but I feel like there is soooo much to report but also nothing either.

We are having lots of fires up here so please pray, praying through it all has made me realize these things about my own life.

God is good, work is good, weather is good, family is good, I have a house to live in, a bed to sleep in, clothes in my closet and food on my plate.

I am blessed! Pastor preached on being thankful and he talked about how we tend to be full of "thanklessness" we don't "thank" as often as we should! I am thankful for all that God has provided for me and mine :)

Thank-you Jesus, thank-you.

I got to meet her !

I met Hailey and she is a true doll !

Ben and I had to travel to BC to attend a friends funeral, the circumstances were poor but we did get to see Miss Hailey Rae and snuggle her !

A picture for you !

Finally one with her mommy :)

the baby came!

(picture from moms cell phone!)

Meet baby Hailey Rae Walsh! She was born this morning at 9:38 a.m. and was 7 lbs 14oz! I think she is adorable and I am so excited to be her Auntie.

Both her and mommy Alex are doing great!